The Best Laid Plans

I had them, for this past weekend.

The plan was to sleep in, then go to the flooring store where we purchased our wood flooring for the living room/dining room two years ago, and talk to them about having the bedrooms and kitchen done to match.

We love our wood floors! It’s the best thing we’ve done to our house in the sixteen years of owning it, and can’t believe we waited this long. Now it’s time to get rid of the last of the carpet in the bedrooms, and that kitchen floor has needed replacing since we bought the house, we just couldn’t decide what we wanted until now.

After that, we were going to run errands, get some things done and then relax and enjoy the weekend.

That was the plan, anyway.

Friday morning, sometime around 1:00 a.m., that all went out the window. Or rather, done the toidy, as my sister and I each came down with the flu. Two women, one bathroom, each taking turns driving the porcelain bus.

And it was nasty! I hate throwing up, seriously hate it. I went twenty five years once without doing it, mostly because as a child I’d thrown up – as we all do – and I decided that just wasn’t for me. And I refused afterward to ever to that again.

Well it worked for twenty five years, anyway. I ended up breaking that streak a while back, and then again, and this would be the third time in my adult life that I’ve “done that”.

Disgusting.

So Saturday was a complete wash. I had it all – the fever, the aching joints, the complete inability to eat anything at all. The fever finally broke right around nine that night, so I was able to sleep. Then Sunday we were just white-washed. Utterly pail, without any desire to eat whatsoever, yet we had to go grocery shopping because we’d missed doing that Friday night and had literally nothing in the house to sustain us should the desire to eat ever return.

They would have thrown us out on the streets if we hadn’t changed their litter pans. You know how they can get.

Sunday we each managed to eat a small bowl of cereal. Today, so far, I’ve had a half a cup of coffee. I’m thinking this part of it, I could get to like. No food for two days so far, inching into three. I could get on board with this.

I have a feeling, though, sooner or later I’m going to end up eating again, and that’ll be that. But I’d really appreciate going another twenty five years before ever throwing up again!

The Annoying bit

I’ve been trying to come up with the back cover blurb/teaser/copy for the new novel coming out for evah! This one just wasn’t coming to me. Most of them are a bit of a struggle, trying to boil down the novel into a few paragraphs of teaser designed to make the reader want to read the book and not just put it down and pick up something else.

It should be easier than it is. Sometimes they flow right outta my fingers and get done the same day I’ve created the cover, others just sit there and glare back at me, laughing.

And honestly, as Pete pointed out to me today while I was whining about it, I don’t have to have a back cover blurb. After all, I’m Indy, we make our own rules about things like that. But really you need something. Even for an ebook, there has to be a description, a snippet that will catch a reader’s eye and tell him or her what the novel is about, so he or she can make the buying decision.

What killed me about this one was, the novel itself was such a blast to write, and went by so fast, then I was getting hung up on the finishing details. I’m still editing, because I’m doing that by hand and since I’m writing the next novel by hand, things have slowed down a touch.

But I have a launch date of July 1st set in my brain, so that’s what will happen, come hell or high water !

I have a cover, and now I have the blurb for the backside.

And it’s Friday. I adore Friday. Gonna go to a wine tasting down town after work, then get the groceries taken care of, and relax ! Looking forward to some fun this weekend, and maybe even a nap.

Meanwhile, after days of fussing, cussing, and pointedly ignoring, here’s a sneak preview of what’s coming July 1st:

Legend has it the Darkness gem holds all the evil of a long-dead alien race, and that whoever possesses the stone will discover the secrets hidden within. Jayden Pearce, famed fortune hunter and galactic adventurer, braved the Dark Forest and ancient temples that kept the stone hidden for centuries. Never one to buy in to curses or dark energy, he sold the gem for a tidy sum to private collector and all-around bad guy Giles Markem, who gave it to his fiancé as a wedding gift.

But legend forgot about Light, the sister stone to Darkness and the map that holds the key to untold rewards.

Jayden Pearce forgot about it, too, until his old partner returns with an offer he can’t refuse.

The Legend of Darkness and Light, coming July 1st.

Not for the faint of wrist

I’m three chapters in to my newest novel, completely hand written. My wrist is killing me, my fingers are sore, but you know what?

I’m okay with it.

Honestly, my wrist stops hurting if I just stop writing and go do something else for about twenty minutes. My fingers are getting used to it, so long as I take breaks. I hold the pen with the iron grip of anger anyway, and have to learn to relax and ease up. That will help my wrist, as well.

So does switching pens now and then. I think through the course of these three chapters, I’ve used four different pens. All black ink, because I’m a black ink sort of person, but various tips and types. Today, for instance, I’m using a Papermate Liquid Flare, extra fine tip. It’s a cheap pen, but really comfortable to use.

Each time I start out, my penmanship is pretty good, readable and not too wonky, but as the page progresses, my penmanship notably digresses. By the end of each piece of college ruled paper, it’s pretty scribbly.

But I’ll tell you one thing – – writing by hand makes you give serious thought to each sentence, each paragraph, and really concentrate on the NOW, not the next scene or the chapter following this. Although as a writer, I can see the novel as a whole, while I’m writing I’m completely in the moment. Nothing matters but the words I’m writing just then, nothing exists further ahead than the sentence I’m on.

Writing by computer can so easily make a writer hurry, and rush through important scenes in a mad dash to get to the next important scene. I think that’s where the ridiculous notion of “write a million words of shit, you can always delete later” comes from.

What a waste of time. Why take the time out of your busy life, while you’re struggling to find time to write amidst chores, kids, work, spouse, errands and life, to write down crap you fully intend to delete later?

You know, another reason I write with a pen is so I can’t erase anything. I hate seeing lines crossed through mistakes, whenever that happens it irks me until I can get beyond that page and go to another. I hate it. Writers using a computer could do themselves a favor, if they resolutely refuse to walk away from the computer – Remove your delete key.

Just pull it right up, set it aside for when you’re balancing your checkbook or editing that scathing email. And while you’re at it, pull off that Backspace key, because I know you’re all thinking “Okay, fine, I won’t delete, but I can backspace and type over what I don’t like.”

Just. Do. It.

I admit, this morning my wrist started hurting right in the middle of a good scene. I was anxious to get down another six or eight paragraphs, and my fingers were screaming at me. I told Pete that maybe, just maybe, it’d be okay to use the computer for a while, and only hand write half the novel.

He reminded me who else did things half way – HITLER. That’s right, Hitler did things half-assed. I’m sure lurkers supported him in email, which was odd, since he and I were emailing that conversation.  /old forum references

Anyway, I didn’t. I set the papers aside, did something else for an hour, then went back to it with renewed vigor. And you know what? My scene was better off for it.

Got balls?

Get a pen.

There will be Rum

The sun’s out today ! Like it was yesterday, and is going to be tomorrow and Sunday. Glorious blue skies and sunshine! Okay, so it is Spring, but around here you never know what you’re gonna get this time of year, and typically your sunny days are Monday through Friday, almost never on the weekend.

But last weekend we had glorious sunshine, and it’s baaack! Which leads me to make extremely detailed plans, so as to get the most out of the weather and the weekend. My sister and I practiced this last Saturday, and found not only were we capable of getting it done, but that it was productive and enjoyable. So this weekend, we’re going to try and do it both Saturday and Sunday.

What is it, you might ask?

Absolutely. Nothing.

My grand plans are to wake up Saturday morning, take my coffee outside on the patio, listen to the birds, gaze around the back yard, perhaps discuss the placement of the new plants, ponder the window boxes and what should go in them, admire the state of the freshly mowed lawn (the gardener came yesterday). After coffee, I’ll set up the new chaise lounges and attach the new chair cushions, then my biggest decision of the day will be: Do I read a book, or work on my own?

Sunday will be more of the same, broken only by my walkies, which I’ll do in the morning before it gets too warm.

Have you ever done that, for an entire weekend? Absolutely nothing, even when you weren’t sick? Do you know how rare that really is for the majority of us? You either have kids to worry about, or chores that need doing. There’s usually errands, a project waiting, or some other commitment clamoring for your time. Sure, it’s the weekend, and you don’t have to go to work, but how often have you spend two solid days in a row not doing a thing?

Sure, I might get some writing done. This novel is being written by hand, slowly and deliberately and very enjoyably, but that’s not work or a chore. I have rocks in the tumblers that need to be cleaned, which is also pure pleasure and done in the sun of the back yard anyway. The groceries and errands will be done after work today, gonna pick up some Baileys, maybe a fresh bottle of Bacardi, and just kick back.

That’s the mood I’m setting for the Summer of 2010. Not to be lazy, mind you. My sister has only been at her new job for three and a half months, so there’s no vacation for her this year – – she just had a full year of unemployment, so don’t be feelin’ sorry for her! And me, well, I have a lot of annual leave I’ll have to take, and I’ll just spend it around the house, enjoying the back yard and writing.

Which brings me to the point I was going to make about that . . . This new novel is being done by hand, and I’m taking it slow, on purpose. It’s a departure for me. So much so, I’m using a pen name, which is having an interesting affect on the overall writing of it all. More on that later. The novel itself is set in West Tennessee, in the summertime, and has a long, slow, humid feel to it. Writing by hand, in the summertime, will add to that in a way only hand writing authors would appreciate. Which is not to be cryptic or snooty, it’s just a fact, like grass being green and sweet tea being disgustingly sweet.

Handwriting is so different, I know ninety eight percent of you are rolling your eyes at the thought, and that’s a shame. I won’t bother preaching at you about it, but in my opinion – if you can’t get a novel done without using a keyboard, how do you even feel like a writer?

I’m looking forward to spending an entire Summer outside, with a pad of paper and a pen, so much I can’t even explain it. There was a little nagging fear in the back of my mind that I’d probably get tired, and bring my little Dell Mini netbook outside and use that when my penmanship began to fail me – but I fixed that little red wagon by giving my netbook to my niece as a graduation gift. She’s in Africa this year, and her computer broke the day she arrived, so I gave my little computer to her to keep. That little screen was hard on my eyes anyway.

I never use the laptop for a lot of writing, especially in the summer, because it’s too hot on my legs and my fingers get all sweaty on the keyboard. Not that big an issue with a pad and pen, surprisingly.

So this summer I’m handwriting, listening to bluegrass, learning how to make a Mint Julep (after figuring out exactly what goes IN a Mint Julep) and getting back to basics, in writing, living, thinking, all that. I wish I had an old rockin’ chair and a black and tan coon hound, but that would probably be taking things a tad too far !

Here’s to Summer, long, quiet weekends, lush green grass and a bottle of Southern Comfort! (which is actually a whiskey and probably way outta my league).

WooT!

Well, I did it !  I manage the walk, even came across the finish line ahead of the majority – not that it was a race or anything, of course.

What a great day that was. Not only did we have a fantastic weekend of sunshine and perfect weather, but then the Walk to Empower fundraiser walk was amazing good fun. My Mother and Sister acted as cheerleaders while my Stepfather and I participated in the Walk. Got up at o-dark thirty in the morning to get into the city by 7:30 sign-ups, then wandered around the participating sponsor booths to pick up swag and eat apples and bananas and bagels (oh my). Then after some warm-up exercises in a group of wild women (and some supportive dudes), a few moving motivational talks and a high-five to Ronald McDonald, we were off!

Like a herd of pink turtles for a few minutes as the crowd tried to manuever through some unfortunate tourists, but then we were off.  Jerry and I were up front and only got seperated from the leaders when we stopped for a red light.

Somewhere around the half way mark we got passed by a few, but I also noticed some of the leaders popping in to Starbucks and Subways to use the potty, but we soldiered on! Grabbed some water and bananas at the halfway and kept marching. Managed the hills of my beloved Seattle streets, waved at some cruise ship passengers, confused a lot of tourists, the sweated back up the hills to the finish.

After that it was pass-out on the grass time, while the DJ kept spinnin’ tunes, and applauding all the finishers coming in after me. That’s when I realized I’d managed to stay out in front the whole time after all.

Then it was closing ceremonies with a local news personality, Dennise Whitaker of KOMO 4 News, and a pledge to do this again next year !  Honestly, I’m hooked. I’m signing up to do the Relay for Life 24-hour walkathon in June, and then it’s on to bigger and better walkies!

Now, if you’ll excuse me, there’s an Aleve calling my name !

Walkies!

So this Sunday, Mother’s Day May 9th, is my cancer walk – raising money for Walk to Empower, which benefits women diagnosed with breast cancer, offering them assistance, guidance, and a great source of emotional support.

Today, I’m at home with a touch of “something” that flattened me out – but I stayed home from work to rest, drinking lots of fluids, taking aspirin and being a zombie on the couch – in order to recover for Sunday’s walk.

But Sunday I’ll be walkin’ !  They’re promising us sunny weather, so I’ll take loads of photos. Hopefully none of me barfing into a potted plant at a red light (!)

So happy Mother’s Day to all the Mothers out there – of which I am not one.  Wish me luck!

Take my advice

I see writing advice all over the web now, from so many different sources. People flock to writing forums, desperate to uncover the secrets. Those who aren’t there in the vain hope of learning some secret code of writing, are there dolling it out, hoping you’ll believe they have the authority and wisdom to tell you what is and isn’t right.

I’m not sure what’s worse – people who believe/hope/pray there’s a secret handshake, or those who want you to believe they know what it is.

Opinions are like assholes. Everyone’s got one.

The tragedy of it all is that the answer is staring you in the face, and has been all along. Ever since the day you thought you wanted to write a story, the answer has been there. The One Truth, the Uber Secret Handshake of it all, and it couldn’t be more simple. I’ll even reveal it here for you at the end of my diatribe, free of charge.

You’re welcome.

I should warn you, though, a lot of you aren’t going to like the answer. You’ve probably even been told what it was before, but it didn’t suit what you wanted it to be, so you moved on to find someone ELSE who could offer up the keys to the kingdom. I can’t help you. In point of fact I (as in me) cannot help you at all. I can lead you to it, I can point out the way and even put it in your hand (or I could, if you were standing beside me or something) but I can’t help you with it.

Recently, relative to a scale of the past several years, I made a breakthrough – a realization about my writing, writing in general, and the big wonder of it all. I grew ten feet tall that day, and the world opened up. Suddenly things are clear, and crisp, and solid, and I understand the universe around me and my place as a writer in it.

I can’t teach you that, or even explain it without sounding like an ass, so I’m not going to bother. When you get there, you’ll know.

But about that Secret Handshake – – the reason it’s so elusive, so hard for people to accept, is because it requires something of you. It’s not as simple as “never use prologues” or “avoid back story”, and yet it’s so much more simple than that. It’s not as complex as “avoid superlative adjectives” or “never open with the weather”. You won’t figure this out by “always write first thing in the morning” or “do ten pages a day without fail” and it’s not gonna come to you while you’re writing your “thousand pages of crap”.

You’re not going to find the answer at a writing convention, or retreat, either. All you’ll get there are lectures, bad hotel chicken dinners, and long, pensive hours staring at a blinking cursor (or your belly button).

But there is good news. The answer can be found on the bus, the train, at your desk, in the living room, the back yard, the beach, even the toilet. Because, my friends, the answer you’re looking for – the One True Secret Handshake of it all – the secret to being a good/better/great writer . . .

Read.

Read, then read some more. Find authors you admire, and study them by reading. Then look for more and read those. Read beyond one genre, read everything you can get your hands on, good, bad or indifferent and then read more.

Read crap so you’ll know what to avoid doing. Read great books so you’ll have something to aspire to. Read books that frighten you, read authors that inspire you, read novels that confound or confuse you and find out why that is. Read what you want to write, read what everyone else is reading, read stuff you’ve never heard of before.

Read, then read some more.

Like it or not, folks, that’s the answer. That’s the Big Secret. That, is the Uber Secret Special Writerly Handshake. That’s the best advice you’ll ever get from any writer, and the only advice that makes any sense at all.

You’re welcome.

Luddites Unite!

Okay, so I’m not technically a dyed-in-the-wool Luddite, since clearly you’re reading this note on a blog, on the interwebs, and not scratched into a cave wall with a stone. But I’m one week into my experiment – which if you recall was to take a novel I’d just finished the first draft of, and handwrite the second draft – and I’ve noted some interesting side effects thus far.

1) I seem to write a very clean First Draft, just as I’d always suspected. In fact, over the years, my First Drafts have gotten cleaner and leaner. Although I’ve changed a few words here and there, and altered a few sentences, I’m several chapters (and half a tube of Aspircream) in and so far no huge changes or big segments altered.

2) I found the perfect cramping break for my hands was to work on the cover art, which was surprisingly difficult for this one. I’ve never had such a time coming up with the “right” look for a cover before, which surprised me, but I think I finally did reach a solid conclusion.

3) I sometimes like to write with a pencil. Yep, even though I bought a new pen for this experiment, and I like that pen a lot, I find myself getting really comfortable with a pencil. I think it harkens back to my early days in school, using a pencil for nearly everything. Plus, when I do make a blunder, it irritates me to see a glob of ink there, and it’s nice to be able to just erase the boo boo.

4) Simplify has been my motto for years, and it’s seriously creeping in to my writing comfort zone. The physical aspect of it, that is. I’m loving how it’s just me and my notebook and pen/pencil. No booting up, no cursor blinking, no Microsoft formatting trying to impose it’s authority over my own. I don’t have to keep explaining to Word that ‘splainin’ is a fine word, properly spelled, thankyouverymuch.

5) I’ve finally shaken off a lot of the nasty side effects that crept over me during an unfortunate time spent in a writer’s forum, and come out the other side stronger, wiser, and clued in – if you will – to some very insightful things.

6) I’ve given myself permission to let the story determine length, and the speed with which it is accomplished. I don’t even check word counts any longer, they’re meaningless. Just as meaningless as micro-labeling genres, which I’ll chat about later on.

There are other issues, other developments, that involve writing by hand that I’ll go at in more depth later, I only have a few minutes to spare (kill) right now and just wanted to gab. This summer is going to be very exciting for me, writerly wise. I’ve learned a lot and discovered a ton and have experienced a sort of … well it’s hard to describe. But it’s exciting, primal and new all at the same time.

And now it’s time to wash out my coffee pot, and my cup, and drive home for the evening.

ChchchchChanges!

Hold on to your butts, I’m dusting and cleaning in here, so things might look a little odd for a couple of days.

Then we’ll return you to your regular blog – thank you for your patience! Remember to tip your waitress.

hot off the presses

So I’ve just completed a novel called The Legend of Darkness and Light. It’s not like the others in that — frankly — this was a mental writing vacation for me. This story is a raucous, balls-to-the-wall, no-holds-barred, cliché-ridden, adrenaline-pumping, goof-fest.

Think Indiana Jones meets Uncharted. A treasure hunting adventure, with all the right trappings.

And I had an absolute blast writing it ! It’s hard to explain why, but it made me feel like a kid again, and it was just plain damn fun.

Now I’m trying something new, which is to say — I’m handwriting the second draft. I’ve never done this before, and I’m not sure if it’ll change much, or anything, but I wanted to give it a shot. Normally I write a pretty clean first draft, with just a few bits and bobs to add and fluff when I’m finished. This time, though, I’m using it as an experiment and a warm-up for my writing hand and penmanship, which are in serious need of exercise.

See, my next novel is already in the works, planning-wise, and it’s gonna be a whopper. I don’t really wanna spoil anything here, not yet, and I sure as hell don’t wanna frighten my readers away, but I’ll say this much . . . It’ll be a complete 180 from what I’ve just done.

And since it’s going to be very involved, I’ve decided that Legend of Darkness and Light will have to be posted on the Midnight Reading site in it’s entirety, all at once. I won’t be putting up a chapter every Friday, as I have been with the others, because I can’t trust I’ll remember every week, and really can’t afford the distraction. So when the eBook and Lulu print version are available, the web free-read will be too.

I’m in search of some good Bluegrass music right now, so if anyone has any suggestions, I’d appreciate them. That’s really about the only “country” music I can tolerate without wanting to get out a gun and shoot everyone in sight, but in the interest of setting a mood, I’m exploring some new tunes. Right now I’m trying out Gangstagrass (not your mamma’s bluegrass!)

But back to my original point, I’m handwriting again. Or at least giving it the ol’ college go, as they say. I’ve read too many amazing novels written by too many astounding writers who all wrote/write by hand to ignore my desire to do it any longer. Granted, back in the day, that’s all I did. Even when we were all using typewriters, I didn’t write my novels on them because making mistakes drove me batty. I couldn’t continue down the line until I’d corrected the mistake, and that got too ridiculous. I’m a fast typist, too, clocking in at 90wpm, but that really puts me at the same mind/writing set as using the computer. The only difference being the sound, the use of paper and white-out, and seeing my words on the screen instead of a piece of paper that’s slowly curling away from me.

There’s a sense of “throw away” when you’re writing on a computer, vs handwriting. You’re more apt to let yourself write shit, knowing you can just delete it out. When you hand write, you invest more time and physical effort with every sentence, so you’re more inclined to spend some time thinking it over, and writing down only what you mean to say, because crossing out huge segments of crap represents so much wasted physical effort (as well as ink and paper).

There’s also a tendency to get ahead of yourself, letting your mind advance to the next paragraph, the next scene, the next chapter, even as you’re still keying out a line. As a result, if you’re not careful, you wind up leaving out whole chunks that you’d intended to write. Great lines and interesting scenes you’d thought up the day before, are forgotten in your rush to type stuff out and progress the novel.

Another thing that sitting at a computer for hours at a time, day in and day out will do is create an underlying sense of HURRY UP! After while, you get impressed by your speed, your production, your massing word counts. Better to slow it all down, give yourself permission to take 6 months to write that novel, rather than enjoying the fact that you can crank out two or three a year. And forget all notion of word counts and lengths. They don’t matter. Only the story matters, and the story will tell you how long it needs to be.

No novel should be any longer, or any shorter, than it needs to be. Padding is for bras, not novels. Your story should begin on Page 1 and end when it’s over. Period. Hard stop. The only consideration you should pay to word counts is when you’re typing up that query to your big time Traditional Agent’s assistant to the mail opening department.

Writing, as with all things in life once you sit down and think about it a second, benefits the most from that old adage: Keep It Simple, Stupid.

Now, if you’ll pardon me, it’s nearly lunch-time and I have a lovely pink Cross ballpoint callin’ my name!

Power to the People!

Make Love, Not War!

Mmmm, I love the smell of ink in the morning!